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some things that made me smile in 2024 so far:
more quality time with my dear pals mia and bella, including lots of hugs, a trip to the carolina's, and shared meals and discussions.
the shirley temple ameer bought me at this fancy wine bar.
posting on my substack more check out my substack, swamp heron.
choosing to live each day even when it's deemed difficult and just about everything that could go wrong, went wrong!
adopting a new mantra, "life is unfair" in times of discomfort and defeat. that doesn't mean i wont try to better my life.
completed the longest nyt crossword streak i have! 32 days. every day for the month of january!
the feeling of the breeze when it blows through my hair.
climbed my first 5.12 at the gym (kind of) hehehe feeling STRONG. and also coming close on V5s!
strawberry szn! :)
saying i love you more to family, and hearing it back.
moving my older brother into his new place in texas, i'm looking forward to visiting more, s/o to alfred who always believes in me and says he's proud of me. he actually is the brains behind the original unlimited crab legs™ name believe it or not.
alex coming back from playing soccer in hungary and making time to see me! my friends are so cool.
attending the care collective collage workshop with all my beautiful friends and being creative next to them!
traveling to vermont with my aunt and seeing the family farm
seeing my cousin graduate from umiami law school and celebrating my dad's 55th birthday on a relaxing adult cruise with ameer and the adults
ameer passing his step exam for medical school! i am so proud of him!
spending sweet time with bethany living together in our final months before she moves to washington
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Life is always evolving and changing. So is time. I can hold this statement to be true and wholeheartedly believe it. Yet, why is it such a hard concept for my little brain to grasp? Is it possible to have an objective opinion if our perception is unique and a compilation of every experience and belief we possess? No nature and nurture, no internal thoughts and experiences, the same. I want to master the art of detachment. Allowing people, places, and things to come and go. These include beliefs I once possessed of myself. Who I thought I would be in the past is not who I am today. The past is a place to learn from, not live in.
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Me too.
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A warm crescent moon lights up the bay. We pedal by dorsal fins of sharks, circling the herons wading in water, creeping for a midnight snack. Fish flying, stingrays splashing, mollusks moving, crabs crawling in the still sea. Our hands meet at the bottom of the quiet stairwell, disappearing into the ocean. We will stop before the stone becomes submerged in foul smelling water and speak of moments we dove into the ocean with nothing but our bare bodies and tender skin. Special moments. Much like this one. A snapshot of your life. Under a night sky scattered with stars light years away from us. Once dust, always dust. From dust, to dust. I imagine they look down at our minuscule lips meeting in the dead of the night in awe.Do you think the stars can sense the comfort shared between us?...and are reminded of the days they were you and I
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current location: florida ......... current status: living + laughing + loving ..........i am: f27....egyptian american......AAAAHHHHHHH
i enjoy climbing, biking, being outside, doing the nyt crossword, pickled things, birdwatching, reading, writing, screaming,
live music, plants and gardening, baking, traveling, camping, a cozy rainstorm, catching salamanders, film, art, diy, sharing a meal with my beautiful friends, mutual aid and being active in my community
to consume the rot or to not?!
i wan't to create more. like everything there is a balance.
it can be inspiring to fill our minds with the positive
but same can be said with distracting myself from the pain ha ha ha:
hit me hard and soft (album, 2024) by billie eillish
actual life 1-3 (album's, 2020-2023) by fred again
various songs from nora brown
random access memories (album, 2013) by daft punk
amama (album, 2024) by crumb
everybody else is doing it, so why can't we? (album, 1993) by the cranberries
moon safari (album, 1998) by air
bad girls (album, 1979) by donna summer
ctrl (album, 2017) by sza
core (album, 2018) and buried blessings (album, 1993) by controlled bleeding
package pt. 2 (album, 2024) by gustaf
a la sala (album, 2024) by khruiangbin
xylem tube (ep, 1991) by aphex twin
cosmogramma (album, 2010) by flying lotus
i shall die here (album, 2014) by the body
soft songs from anothe planet (album, 2017) by japanese breakfast
we must become the pitiless censors of ourselves (album, 2011) by john maus
daughters (album, 2010) by daughters
orange mathematics (album, 2016) by frontierer
brasilian skies (album, 1977) by masayoshi takanaka
sanguine (album, 2007) nepenthe (album, 2013) the magic place (album, 2011) by julianna barwick
melody's echo chamber (album, 2012) by melody's echo chamber
velocity: design: comfort. (album, 2003) by sweet trip
merriweather post pavilion (album, 2009) by animal collective
music has the right to choldren (album, 1998) by boards of canada
deeper well (album, 2024) by kacey musgraves
undressed at the symphony (album, 2024) by faye webster
sanguine (album, 2007) by julianna barwick
casino versus japan (album, 1997) by casino versus japan
folksongs & ballads (album, 1971) by tia blake & her folk group
i'm in your walls (album) & idk if i can make music anymore (ep) by death insurance
the love market (album) by filmaker
scaring the hoes (album) by danny brown and jpegmafia
frances the mute (album) and deloused in the comatorium (album, 2002) by the mars volta
no love deep web (album) & the money store (album) by death grips
soft sounds from another planet (album) by japanese breakfast
fawn (album) & III (album) by foxtails
i started using letterboxd, so instead of updating every film i watch on this list and there, i'll just plug my diary here, esp since i've been watching a lot of films lol my letterboxd diary
the hundred years' war on palestine (book, 2017) by rashid khalidi
before sunrise (film, 1995) directed by richard linklater
trust (film, 1990) directed by hal hartley
anatomy of a fall (film, 2023) directed by justine triet
the godfather (film, 1972) directed by francis ford coppola
nowhere (film, 1997) directed by gregg araki
house (film, 1977) directed by nobuhiko obayashi
ladri di biciclette / the bicycle thieves (film, 1948) directed by vittorio de sica
the vanishing (film, 1988) directed by george sluizer
the house that jack built (film, 2018) directed by lars von trier
the double life of véronique (film, 1991) directed by krzysztof kieślowski
in the mood for love (film, 2000) directed by wong kar-wai
tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow (novel, 2022) written by gabrielle zevin
a bunch of zines from zine fest 2024!
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